Jennifer home broken wide
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Do you hear God say it? I am yours. You are mine.

BROKEN WIDE HOLY SPIRIT

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t is in the dark that I hear him. A voice confident. Robust. Jocular even. He fills the room, his response to my simple question so immediate, it is without question He was there all along.

I leave off the lights so there is nothing else I see. I want my heart to see. I want my heart to hear. There it is–my spirit inviting my soul to wake: Wake up! Wake up!

I love that sound. A declaration of a soul awaking.  A warrior call to live, to not stay sleeping. It is my favorite sound.

My heart unfolds now. It stretches, expands. I know this voice, this beckoning. But this is different. It is not my Father speaking now. It is the Spirit laughing, celebrating.

This. This day.

This is the best day, like all the days. For we—you and I—are separate from the throng. Children who rise. Daughters shielded, protected, fearless in our confidence of who we are.

Do you hear Him say it? His delight at the reminder?

I am yours. You are mine.

In darkness I see us clearly. The sun arising. The light breaking forth, a blanket of white and gold spread out, a banner of welcome, a herald call of Home.

Here is home.

His voice breaks open my senses. I am no longer in the room but in my truest place, the daughter who runs with the horses. Who can stand the strength of the wind.

I am on the field of battle. A million horses. More.

Before the mountains we stand. Armed. Ready. I carry my weapon. It is solid, familiar in my hands.

Stand now, daughters. Stand now, sons. It is up these mountains we climb.

A sea of energy, of hope made new. A band of brothers and sisters more terribly beautiful and powerful, in His name, than any heart can understand.

I know this. I know I see what I cannot yet understand. But I want to see it still. I want to live there, still. For this is the awakening, the call of heaven to move, to arise, to stand up and put on the armor of God here, now. For the time when heavens breaks open and our fullness is realized and our new bodies hold the weight of glory. Finally owned. Finally realized.

Feel it now. Own it now.

Our Father knows how we will most readily recognize His voice. For me, it is the call to stand with Him, the call to rise, the desire to not remain asleep.

While I love to be at his feet, scooped up in his embrace, it is the Spirit’s movement in me that resounds. I want it more. I want the parts of me that resist Him to be thrown into the fire.

Come, God, You’ve done it Jesus. Spirit, I am your dwelling, free.

Yes, you set me free.

Let us not live this day with passivity, asleep to the Spirit’s laughter, the Spirit’s counsel, the Spirit’s energy and love mobilizing our heart to awake, awake, awake!

No more shall we live self-absorbed, afraid, asleep.

No more.

Break us wide open, God. Help us follow You, Jesus. Let us run harder, faster, our hearts still and hope-filled and confident.

We know who we are. The mountain climbers. The ones who dance and sing at God’s feet.

How do you invite in Holy Spirit? What happens (and what do you hope happens) when you do?

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  • Mary
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    I love your line “Break us wide-open God”. I invite the Holy Spirit every morning to give me motivation to get moving in my life. To help me to go “wide-open” ! For me it is hard to see through all “the stuff” to get to the good. For me it is easier to do nothing than fight for the something I really want to do or carry that feeling of guilt because I left so many other things undone so I could do this. And also the feelings of “you could have got it all done if you would just get moving”. So every morning I ask the Holy Spirit for motivation and bring me feelings of joy for everything I do or have to do. Some mornings I ask the Holy Spirit to help me be content with just being still. It all sounds so simple but us really very complex. I guess it all comes down to excepting myself at this season of my life and praying that the Holy Spirit help me with that.

    • Jennifer Camp
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      I love, Mary, how you look to Him for the reminder of the truth of your worth–how you start there. Yes, His love fuels everything. I pray we pursue Him with energy and expectation today.

      • Linda Mariani
        Reply

        Awake is want i have been hearing and reading in scripture. what does this mean for me as a christian?
        I was wakening in the middle of the night and heard Awake real loudly. I knew in my heart that i had read
        that scripture that pertains to this. I have been praying to god and asking him why he is telling me this at this
        season of my life.
        Can anyone email me at mslela_51620@yahoo.com and share what this means?
        Call me at 773-536-4214 better yet?

        • Jennifer Camp
          Reply

          Linda, a good place to start is to look up all the references to “awake” in Scripture and ask Holy Spirit to help you interpret it. Keep listening. Keep expecting. . . .

  • Jacqualine
    Reply

    Dear Jennifer, A moment of thankfulness and greatfullness, for being there at just the right time in my life. It is through your writing and the gift of the Holy Spirit that directed me to find strength and reassurance in all things when my world collapsed. Your voice reaches many miles, many distances and just so you know ….. it makes a beautiful difference in many people lives. A gift from God…. bless you and thanks…. from the bottom of my heart!

    • Jennifer Camp
      Reply

      Jacqualine, it is in little moments like this, opportunities to connect with sisters like you, that shows me more of God’s tenderness and love. Thank you.

  • Helena
    Reply

    I love when he comes. Someone’s he comes so strong that indent have energy, my vou e gets softer than how I feel inside, inside I’m screaming, outside I’m speaking with kindness in a way that only him can make me talk like. I love the Holy Spirit!!! I want him to come every single day, to shape me, to change me, to show me how he sees me and where he wants us to go together next. I’m waiting for him to speak something speacil for the next days, a direction to 2018. I love the Holy Spirit so Much!!! But there’s so much to experience and live with him… I’m excited to do life with him!

  • Barbars
    Reply

    You always open up my soul so gently, so beautifully, so kind and yet so gently pushing me forward. Sometimes I am seeking and don’t know which way to go. He is always there to guide my steps.
    Thank you

  • Riana Louw
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    The Holy Spirit gives me scripture in a soft voice, dreams, music, especially music, often it brings specific scripture soaked music to my attention, and then a few days on, it comes in handy. Often i see white doves, had a dove, flying next to my car on a narrow road, after i prayed for safety, because i have not driven this road in a long time.People i meet, having fellowship with me, and the music is always a topic, and we always share how we receive. I have an extensive collection of books, i received a lot of direction from those books, i always read it with my Bible included.Sometimes i just start laughing, i had this potential interference in my business, and when i got wind of it, i just started laughing, it’s like i rested in The Lord, because the Joy of The Lord is my Strength, well, in the end, i had nothing to worry about.

    • Jennifer Camp
      Reply

      Riana, oh, this is precious., and so beautiful. Thank you.

  • Priscilla Kramer
    Reply

    How do I invite the Holy Spirit? Usually by saying, “Holy Spirit, come”. Lately though, it has been with one of my newest songs, I invite Him in. He is always here, but even though I know He never leaves me, He still likes to be invited. It’s like when you and your spouse are heading out the door together, and you turn to them and ask, “are you ready?”. We all like to be asked. We all feel good when someone cares enough to look back and make sure we are still with them. To be included, and not ignored. So lately I have been learning to ask the Holy Spirit, Papa, Jesus…”are you ready? Let’s do this together.” Because together is the very best place to be!

  • Donna Torrado
    Reply

    This post has caused me to realize I don’t give the Holy Spirit as much credit as I should. I usually say Lord, God, Fatjer but not Holy Spirit. You have given me a new direction to go to. Thank you.

    • Jennifer Camp
      Reply

      This is going to be so fun, Donna! I can’t wait to hear about this new adventure with Him!

  • Dale
    Reply

    I love all these comments and replies. I have learned that He is a wonderful friend. Always there to love, lead, strengthen and instruct. A constant and loyal voice. I’ll continue to listen as I move in His rhythm, awake.

  • Marian Hindall
    Reply

    The Holy Spirit usually comes to me in prayer. I could be praying for one thing for someone and HE directs me to pray for something else for that person. When I do and share that with the said person, HE answers my prayer, which is a testimony for that person and for us to praise HIM!!

    A lot of times the Holy Spirit speaks to me through scripture. As you said Jennifer, a warrior call to live!!

  • Marla
    Reply

    I’ve never completely walked away from God but I have been distracted from the path from time to time.  I’m now on the path to renewal and going deeper than I’ve ever gone with God before. I rely on the Holy Spirit to guide and teach me and to show me what God has for me.  At times I have felt like I’m so insignificant and small in this world and wonderd how I could possibly make a difference.  When I began (and still do) reading your Loop emails it was as if He was speaking directly to me, and me only, breathing His life and words into a deep place within my heart and stirring my spirit, awakening me and calling me forth.   I’ve re-learned to hear His still small voice and am listening more and listenening deeper.  I just want to say thank you for allowing the Holy Spirit to move in you and to bring forth God’s words of love to all the women you reach. I’m receiving and finally starting to realize God’s deep love for me and how significant, and important, I truly am to Him. I’m looking forward to what God has for me with excited anticipation.

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