“I am lost,” is what she says. But she is stronger than she knows.

She is beautiful but doesn’t believe it yet. Rather, she is convinced of a lie: there is no hope for her; she can never be found.

Who would look for her? Who would come for the daughter who flounders, doubting her role, her purpose? How can she find her way?

Who will hear the questions she whispers in the night?

Lost and needing God's responseI am restless, God. How do I get more of You?

Where are You when it is eight o’clock and my patience is gone and I’m wondering how to keep loving people while feeling completely spent?

How do I pray to You when I don’t know the words?

When did that lie come in, God—the lie that I’m not enough?

 

Lost and needing God's response

Lost and God's response

Lost and needing God's response

These are the questions of the women ofBreathing Eden. Do you ask these questions, too?

Lost and the women of Breathing Eden blog imageCatherine is lostAre you like Catherine, hungry for more of God, for intimacy with him?Catherine wants more than reading books about God. Her head is filled with ideas and information about Him; but what she wants is a relationship, to know his heart and to experience his closeness. She fears she doesn’t know how to get close to Him. And God responds.

Johanna is lostCan you relate to Johanna, who has a heart for serving people but is nervous that she isn’t serving God?Johanna loves God, and she wants to please Him. But she wonders if she is missing something in her relationship with Him. She wants to know whatmoreHe has for her. She asks God if He is proud of her. She fears she needs to work harder to be loved. And God responds.

Claire is lostHow are you similar to Claire, worrying that you are missing something in your relationship with God?Claire feels she isn’t connecting with Him as closely as other people. She struggles with being vulnerable in community, not necessarily because she is nervous about being transparent, but because she is stuck in the fear of “getting it right.” She wonders what it is a Christian is supposed to look and sound like. She asks God, “Do You evenwantto talk to me, God?” She fears she can’t pray the right way to have a relationship with Him. And God responds.

Emily is lostOr maybe you resonant with Emily, and you are asking God to remind you how you are uniquely made—what it is you are made to do and love?Emily realizes how she is made to worship God—see Him and know Him and experience Him. And she fears that she has lost some of her true heart for worship. Emily has gotten distracted by caring more about pleasing others and succeeding than the experience of doing what she is made to do with God. She fears she can’t experience freedom anymore in doing what she loves. And God responds.

Perhaps we recognize ourselves in one of these women—or in each of them, in some way? In writing the book, Breathing Eden, I wrote stories that represent 40 different women and their heart cries to God. And for each story, I wrote down God’s response.

Are you eager to discover what God has to say to each woman? Are you eager to hear what He says to you?

Email me your Amazon receipt when you pre-order Breathing Eden, and I’ll send you the first five chapters—and the ebook,Prayers for the Women of Breathing Eden—right away. *And for other free gifts, see the list of good stuff here.

We are made new when we heed God’s responses to our deepest questions, longings, and fears.

How do you feel lost and need to hear God? With what woman do you relate most? What questions are you asking when you pray?

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  • Nikita
    Reply

    It’s so amazing that I connect to more than one person here. Wow, truly can’t wait for this book.

  • Germaine Maponda
    Reply

    Hello , I don’t know where life is bringing me . As a single mom , I’m trying to ask from God , I’m so lost . I’m asking myself if God still hearing me . I’m so lost that some time I don’t pray the way I used to do . Thanks for your Love

    • Pam Kelley
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      Germaine, you are never lost. You may feel lost but your loving Father is right there next to you. He does want to be in a deeper relationship with you but sometimes the world is just too noisy and life is just to busy. Find a quiet place and read a Psalm quietly. Let Him speak to your heart. Now answer him. Be still and feel His peace and presence. He is right there with you now and loves you more that you will ever know. Let Him in. The enemy tries to tell us that we do not have time, we are so busy and we are tired. He waits for us to seek Him. Tell the enemy he is a liar and that you are made in the image of your Father and that you believe in God and that He does love you. Thank the Lord for your breath, your life, your children, your friends, the food you eat. Watch what happens as your heart warms……

    • carin pulinario
      Reply

      Hello sister, know that you are not alone for we all go through trials and tribulation, but thats the way our Lord use to help us come closer to Him for other wise many of us will not seek Him if all was well. have faith and perseverance on this time for God eye is upon you.. Seek Him with your open heart at time i dont even have to open my mouth just my heart and i feel my self telling Him exackly how I feel. We all feel alone or loss at time. And am sure His disiples and many of the Old Testament did as well, but let your faith guide you to your path. i was a single mom for many years. yet am still here yes is not easy. But you are Not Alone. I rush and mary a good man after many years of being a single mom and now am going through a worse desert than before all my dreams came down amd i dont know who i mary but what am trying to say is, i could easily allow the enemy or mynown self to feel gulty and loose my self in sorrow or disapointment but i rather believe that my God has control of everything all i have to do is ve obedient to His will and surrender my self. look at the positve in your storm and soon you will see a rain bow. God bless you and am here for you. My name is Carin you can reply here or email me @ myfaith0219@gmail.com to stay in contacr we all have a purpose in our life .

      • carin pulinario
        Reply

        https://youtu.be/cuGD4KqKLtE
        here this praising hope it help, is sure helping me

        • carin pulinario
          Reply

          https://youtu.be/mBcqria2wmg
          This is what our Lord do even when we dont see it or believe so believe cause theres nothing better than to trust in Him. Hope you be fill with joy as i am while i write to you.

      • Teresa
        Reply

        Hi carin,

        Good morning! Thank you for the inspiring and encouraging message even its not directly for me but as i am reading it gives me hope and guide me thos are the words that i need to hear for me to continue moving on yah im seperated with my husband 3 yrs and my marriage is so broken my husband have woman and this month he came home and we talk he admit and ask for a 2nd chance and i give him now he is back to other place and work he dont communicate and tx sometimes he will answer but he is not always responding so now that is my situation right now he ask for restoration but he is not cooperating in a way that it will not make me. Feel bad

        • carin pulinario
          Reply

          Good afternoon Teresa,
          Is so joyceful to heard that ones trials could be of blessing to others. Am so glad to be of any help. I want you to know that the pain and tears we have gone through are not in vein. Trust in the Lord for He is teaching me to place my sight in Him, for if we place our sight on man, we would be hurt for we all are inperfect there for we would make mistake, some on purpose others by mistake. But we are call to forgive the way God forgives and me going through this hard time with my husband am useing it to learn to forgive him, not to look at him with my flesh but in the spirit, the way God look at all of us. with mercy and love all i cant say is pray ask your father for patience, love, forgiveness and for His holly spirit to guide you.. we are not alone. if we feel along is cause we seek to not seek God we are so use to looking at the negative in any storm or just looking at the storm instead of what can we learnd from it.. am here for you i know theres much we can help each other and learn from each others. I encourage you to look at the light not the darkness or the hight no the low or good not thw bad. i know you would ask your self well what good is there in my situation my husband is not respecting our vows etc, well theres plenty of positve in this dark lonely time. example you get to know that you are not alone also you get to search for God with more strengh beacuse you know theres nothing u can do without Him or on your own the same is for me ajd many other it does not matter which storm they are going through. forgive your husband pray for Him, ask God to do His will not yours even if that hurts but know that at the end if you perceverce God will show you the blessing. Just know what our Lord when through does not compare to any thing we might go through but know that He said He will be with us until the end of time. is up to us to seek Him. please reply and lets continue to talk and know and help each other.. may our Lord bless with the His strengh. much love.. feel free to contact me at any time.

    • Kim
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      Germaine, your words touched my heart. As I sat here and read your words, I felt that sting of loneliness that sounds like you must be feeling. First please know that you are cared about. My heart wants to reach to you and let you know that. I will pray for you and reach out every time you feel alone….you are not alone….and people do care for you and how you are doing. Being a single mom is not easy and it’s a very lonely place at times. Remember sometimes the hand of our Father comes through other people who know Him.

      When life tears us apart and we don’t know where to turn and the darkness seems to overshadow His light. Know you are not alone….reaching out as you have is the path to His light. We are called to be in community with each other….I am not sure if this will help, but I have felt so alone sometimes, where I could barely whisper a word, except “Father help me.” I would read and cry and read and cry…These were days when all I could do in life was put one foot in front of another just to keep going. I would be on my face….struggling….. Crying….scared because I had moved to a new city alone after 20 years of marriage. Life as I knew it had fallen apart and I was alone….each day all I could say was, “One more day”, and as every day went by, and my loneliness would engulf me, I reached for Him, His word and other ladies to keep my mind on something good. Through these women is how I felt His arms around me.

      I don’t know what you are going through, but please know that even if all you say is, “Father are you here?” He does hear you… Reach out to others like you have and we will reach for you. He hears you, yet it can feel like you aren’t sure if He does….and one day you will look back to these days and see His imprint on those moments and smile. That community is my life raft when I feel like bobbling below the surface gasping for air. Now, a couples years after those beginning moments of life where it was really difficult, life is going better. Although, there are still days I fall into that loneliness and need to know He is there, and I ask that question, “Are You still here Father?” I trust Him now and know He is….

      Blessings and prayers…and hugs

  • Laura
    Reply

    I can relate to all of them!! I want more of God but I feel deaf sometimes. I get so caught up in wanting to be a “good Christian” that I forget who I’m serving. I get confused if I’m doing it for God or people. Then I think I should take a step back to reevaluate and I fear I’m being disobedient in His calling on my life. I fear I’ll never be as close to Him as the others I see in my church. I just want to hear and KNOW He’s speaking to ME…I can’t get enough of His presence..

    • Kimberly
      Reply

      I so much, can relate, to what you are saying here !!

      • viola Rives
        Reply

        I can relate sometime i dough my salvation i no God love me i feel so alone

  • Marcelle
    Reply

    I want more intamicy with God sometimes I feel that I don’t pray enough and not the right way. I can’t hear God speaking to me

    • Erica
      Reply

      i know exactly what you mean wanting intimacy with God is all i want.. because i know from that place everything will change

    • yvette tyson
      Reply

      I don’t know how to pray . I need more stuff to teach me how to pray

    • Tara
      Reply

      Yvette,

      When you pray, kneal God open hearty and talk with him just as if your having a conversation with your close friend. He’s a very understanding God. Many say they can’t her his voice. The Lord deals with people in different ways. As for myself, he comes to me in my dreams and the conversation and visions he shows me are amazing. Always read scriptures before going to bed and ask him to touch your heart. And lastly, end your prayers in Jesus name!!! Be consistent and watch his work!

      • Tara
        Reply

        So many typos…sorry!**open heartly,**hear his voice,

  • Kim
    Reply

    My mom recently passed away unexpectedly. I am frozen in my tracks. I don’t know how to move or even where to go. I feel utterly alone. I am waiting….and doubtful I can get through this.

    • Carole
      Reply

      Kim,
      I can relate to you. I lost my mom in 1987 only 2 1/2 months after she was diagnosed with cancer! I was angry at God!! I didn’t know how I was going to live without her. I still needed her and she was gone!
      I sought out a grieving class after a few months. There I learned about myself and my new relationship with God. I wrote a letter to my mom and another to God expressing how i was feeling, lost, scared, unprepared, angry etc. it helped a lot! For now read Psalm 139 and know how much God lovesyou and how special you are to Him. Rely on God and talk to him about every little detail and He will take care of you, have no doubts !! Be patient and obey Him. I will keep you in my prayers.

    • Lady T.
      Reply

      I lost my mom , oh how u feel so alone, especially , when you are the last pea in the bowl, however, when we realize that to die in Christ is to live again it helps ease the pain tremendously. They say time heals all wombs…

    • Fellissa
      Reply

      I lost my son from a massive heart attack 2 days after his 43rd Birthday! We spoke briefly and approximately 3 hours later he was gone! Next month it will be on September 5th it will be a year. I was devastated, angry, hurt and all the emotions that came…plus the following month of his death I lost my job and 8 months later I walked away from a relationship I had been in for 15 years. I wrote all of that to tell you this life on earth is only temporarily and no one knows the pain a person goes through of a “Sudden Death” also no one knows the pain to lose a child, parent and/or spouse unless you have walked in their shoe’s. Cry, Talk to God in your own style, Don’t listen to Clichés, Buy a small plant and watch it grow and RELAX. Don’t force yourself just BE YOU and it will be easier before you know it. I am your witness, trust that.

  • Sabrina
    Reply

    I can relate. I feel so numb sometimes I feel out of place I’m trying to find out who I am what is my purpose I’m totally lost . I been everybody else but when will somebody be there for me.

  • Erica
    Reply

    i can surely relate to a little of all of them at the moment, feeling lost, feeling vulnerable, definately wanting more of God, am i doing enough am i praying enough, what is my purpose Lord what do you want me to do for you.. i just want to be certain I am hearing from Him and He is speaking to me.. i also fear im not in his will i compare myself sometimes to others wanting that relationship for me emotional to say the least………

    thank you Jenny and ladies

  • LATONIA R GORE
    Reply

    I am at the point myself. I feel so alone and lost. Do I do enough to get God’s attention. Am I doing the right things. I don’t pray enough I don’t read enough is that why God hasn’t answered me. What am I doing so wrong.

    • Tara
      Reply

      Latonia,

      Speaking from experience…the answer is “Patience”. I’m am so inpatient but I promise you that when you ask God for something and have faith,even in the mist of a storm, he will deliver. I’m going to be honest it is very hard when you want something “right now” but your timing is not God’s timing! He may not come when you want him but he is always on time if it’s in his will for “your life” and not anyone else’s.
      Seek him and yeah shall find.

  • Linda Johnson
    Reply

    I need more power… praying power! I just feel like as a minister, or even as a Christian, we should always be ready to pray for people. My brother in-law has cancer. He and my sister have always been there for me. He is the humor of our family circle. How do you pray for those you have leaned on so long, and when the table is turned you have to search for a time to pray for them? God has no respect of persons…I just don’t understand what makes me so shy and withdrawn when it comes to praying for my brother in-law? I mean I pray for him in my “war room” if you will, but when it comes to laying on hands, I just can’t seem to bring the prayer out

  • Kerry -Ann Smith
    Reply

    Well there is definitely me in all of these women.. Sometime I feel so lost and lonely..I know God loves and cares for me..but sometime my mind is clouded. I want to have an intimate relationship with God.. But i fear I’m not worthy.
    Thank you for sharing a part of your book with me .

  • MICHELLE
    Reply

    Yes numb is the description of myself. My husband has been in the nursing home since Dec of 2012, he had a stroke which has left him totally dependent on others. My prayer life, worship time, meditation of the Word all have been lost.
    I been everybody else but when will somebody be there for me?
    PLEASE RESCUE ME!!!!

    • Linda Johnson
      Reply

      Dear Michelle,
      There are times in our life where getting into the presence of God is very difficult. Such as the time in your life where your husbands illness is consuming most of your time away from meditation, worship and reading of God’s Word. It is times like these where we have to press our way; we have to say to ourselves, come hell or high water, I need to get in the presence of God; I need someone to step in for me so that I can get away and get just a touch from God. Sister we have to push everything aside and GO! The saying, “Let go and let God”…..? The woman with the issue of Blood (Luke 8:43-48), never would have been healed if she would have let the crowd deter her; she pressed her way! Be encouraged.

    • Nancy
      Reply

      Michelle, I am praying for you and your husband. Sometimes it is a good thing to be numb. Not all of our feelings, or lack of feelings is a bad thing or good thing. Sometimes they are just what we need to get through our situation. It is also ok to pray for ourselves. The Lord wants to hear from us and be close to us. Truly, He loves you and He loves your husband. We may never know what deep effect we have on people we don’t even know have passed our way. Someone seeing your loyalty to your husband may be getting just what they need to find strength or hope in their own situation . You may think your husband is gone from you but it very well may be that his work simply is not done here on earth. But it may be that you may never know what that work is. Have faith and trust God. He is with you. Maybe just start by saying “Our Father, I am tired, but I thank you for one more day with my husband. I trust in your timing Lord, but I need your help for strength to get through today. I know my husband and I are living out your plan for our lives even if we don’t know the reason. I am grateful and ask you to continue to bless us in every moment. In Jesus name. Amen”. God Bless you, your husband and his care givers.

  • Janet Tocatlian
    Reply

    Linda as a Minister myself, sometimes we are the most critical of all to ourselves. God, our wonderful father, our daddy from heaven has ordained you as His Minister, as a your gift given to you of healing, do not fear. God has you covered by the Holy Spirit! It is He that heals., we are only vessels, as we walk, speak, hear, see and touch like our Heavenly Father with Him, and ask Him to come into us to help others.
    By faith, they are healed.
    It’s so hard because I’m a miracle from the Lord. Just healed about 4 months ago. Jesus is so real but it’s a process. Your brother in law needs to repent and receive the Lord. Maybe that’s what’s holding you back..this is your test I promise as a minister, and family, we must get past this and help everyone. It’s about saving souls.
    May the Lord bless you and your family!!
    I need to do the same…✝??❤️

  • Debbie Giocondo
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    To Linda about praying for your brother-in-law. You have to just do it afraid. Just take a step out in faith and the Lord will meet you. Don’t miss the opportunity! The same spirit that raised Christ from the dead dwells in you. He will quicken your mortal body (those are words to a song) once you take that step out – He will take over. I will pray for you. Blessings!

    • Linda Johnson
      Reply

      Thank you Debbie. Your words are very encouraging…you are right, once we step into the realm of God He will take over. Thanks for bringing this to my remembrance!

  • Samantha Abrahams
    Reply

    Hi, I am really blessed by this space of sharing. I have been in the ministry with my husband for more than 20 years and I can still relate with all those women. I have seen God come through for my family and I in such wonderful ways – but I still feel stuck! As the wife of a minister, mother, grandmother and daughter, I still feel lonely. I would believe God for everything, but life has strangled my faith to such a point that I feel that I am useless. Nothing is happening, I feel I can still do so much more for God, but I am stuck in a job that kills me and a church that is growing so slowly and with so many broken people in a community that is so needy. I feel we are not winning the battle and it feels as if I am failing God. My heart is heavy daily and I try to find joy in my salvation but the burdens of the day to day just gets me down. Please keep me in your prayers…and thank you for your encouraging words … you are blessing!

  • Luisa
    Reply

    Ladies…I read everyone’s responses and yes I have been where everyone else has been….but one day in my alone time I felt the holy spirit tell me I’m trying to do something from my own power and that’s never going to work…so I decided to let go and let God…we don’t have to do anything it’s all ready done. Trying to get free on your own strength never works! It’s God’s empowerment that sets us free! Just pray, repent and worship him is what I do! He hears you, he’s empowering you from the inside out. When you stay present to your everyday blessings that’s when you know your prayers have been heard. Sometimes the only prayer I can say is Help Me and Thank You! Ladies remember prayer is always about advancing HIS kingdom and all about his Glory and his Will for our lives. Blessings to you all.

  • Tara
    Reply

    Great posts ladies!!!

  • Esther Guo Lee
    Reply

    Nobody’s life is easy. It really bother me a long time. I am afraid that God would give me more challenge when I get more close to God. But I am tired to handle any more challenge. Since this idea happened, I tried a long time no to pray, not to read Bible. I continue to my church in order to avoid church’s people’ caring, but I tried not to talk to anybody. That time I just walked out from a sorrow that I don’t want to talk to anybody. So I started to escape from God. But years past, I felt I am empty. I am still in all kinds of trouble, some time the trouble doesn’t happen, my family is already in the future trouble. It really bother me. I started to pray but just like other sister’s feeling, I am lost. Whatever I pray, I never felt God is with me. In order to encourage myself, I started to read Bible everyday, today is the 100th day. I hope I can keep going every day. I don’t want God think I worship him only from my lip but from my heart. I try to find more services to do when I don’t want to talk at church time. That is really helpful. Anyway if you still can tell you friends what is your feeling, what is your trouble, congratulations, I think you are good, God is with you still.

  • Nancy Marino
    Reply

    Jesus tells us in the NT that He left the Holy Spirit to comfort us. He is within us once we have received Christ as our Saviour. I could not have gotten through my father’s passing had I not had the Spirit to talk to especially at night when I was in such physical pain from moving my dad to change his diapers, wash and clothe him each day- loading him into the car for dr’s appts…. I was exhausted from cooking, cleaning when dad would unplug his foley cath when he got mad at me, balancing his meds needs with his food needs- he was a brittle diabetic. But imagine my joy when my husband told me that my dad, who had become incoherent due to raging infections and high power iv meds in the hospital- told me that he was using a prayer cloth that I had made my dad to pray with. I only got through these last months because I prayed for continued faith in the Lord’s timing- every day. We are so blessed that our God loves us enough to sacrifice his son for our sin.

    • Linda Johnson
      Reply

      Nancy, you have got to be one of the most gifted and blessed women in the world. I mean that from my heart. For what you did for your father, not too many of us would have tolerated it. Reading your post made me realize how blessed I am. May God continue to pour His strength and blessing upon you, so that you can be good news and encouragement to those of us that think we are going through.

      • Nancy Marino
        Reply

        Linda, I am sorry to hear about your b-i-l. If you only knew the whole story about my dad… you would think I made it up. I am the oldest of 11 children. I did not grow up with my dad, sisters Debbie and Brenda or brother Charlie. My dad never changed one of my diapers… I never shared all of the wonderful things life offers us by living with a parent. The day before he died was the first father’s day I had been blessed to spend with him. I fed him his last supper. I tell you this only because 6 weeks after dad died my half sister Debbie died unexpectedly. When I met Debbie in 2008 she turned her back to me and said, “I have nothing to say to her (meaning me)” When I made the decision to take my dad into our home our pastor had given a sermon on the importance of picking up another’s burden. Debbie asked to talk to me, apologized for how she had treated me and we began a relationship. I also have what I call a growing up half sister. Her name is Cheryl and she is 4 years younger than me She is a 16 year sinus pharyngeal cancer survivor but she looks 80 years old (she will be 60 in Sept)… her cancer comes back from time to time. When she found out I embraced Charlie she thought I was turning my back on my growing up dad…. Raymond (deceased) and refused to talk to me for years. When I went to get my dad Charlie, who lived next door by this time with my mother- I got to spend time with Cheryl and renew a relationship with her. I am so grateful for this!!! What I want to tell you is this- you don’t have to be physically present to “lay hands” on your bil- our Lord hears our cries, he hears our tears and our prayers. Even if you are laying hands on your bil in your mind our Lord is hearing you. He is our Jehovah Rapha… our ultimate physician. Don’t give up on Him… He NEVER gives up on us!!! He has many names in the bible… He is our comforter… He suffered for us on His crucifixion day…. He knows our pain. You can be a blessing to your bil without uttering a word. You already are. God bless you both. Don’t give up hope.

        • Linda Johnson
          Reply

          Thank you, thank you sooooooo much!!! You know I never realized how powerful God really is. The realization that He is omnipresent (present at all times), gives me the assurance of your words that I can lay hands on my b-i-l without being there. You know what, reading your post gives me the incentive to physically lay hands on my b-i-l. You are an awesome lady, again in the name of Jesus, I thank you.

          • Nancy Marino

            The Lord’s blessings on you and yours. Let us all know how you are faring with this difficult situation, Linda. You remain in my prayer. Hugs.

  • Yvette
    Reply

    I find myself relating to 3 of the women in your book very much, such as Catherine, Johanna and Claire…but in some ways, I feel, that I could relate to all of them too..

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