BRIEF

We feel hollowed out. Words, thoughts, feelings play hide-and-seek. We want to cajole them, coerce them into cooperating. No need to be shy. It’s just me.

We are on our knees again. With no answers. No words. Will worship music help? What about beauty? So we find the songs that help our hearts remember who we are. We look for light falling on our face, our hands, bare branches in bitter cold outside. Words for our feelings might come now, yes? Oh, God, what is going on with my heart?

Listening helps us discern–untangling these emotions. Our heart beating. Our very breath. We are drawn inward. Father, help me hear You. Slow me down.

We convince ourselves that no words means no understanding. No words means confusion and denial and retreat. No words means doubting ourselves at the core: I am surely lost. Where is my place here? What matters?

We struggle to recognize these whispers of doubt and discouragement for what they are–distraction, lies of the enemy twisting what is good and making discontent rot what is hope, what is true, what is here. We feel only our spinning, our confusion, our disappointment, our anger. Each a symptom of an ache for something deeper. Yes, God, this struggle is real.

Understanding our own hearts feels elusive, and we are impatient to figure out what is going on. Where is joy? Why do I feel so distant from You?

We want to wrestle clarity to the ground, tie it up, lock it down. Stay close! Don’t even think about getting away!

But then quiet.

God reminds us it is okay to not have the answers. We want to be okay with that.

Have courage, dear heart. Have courage to stay in the quiet, the place of no words. There is going to be a picture for you to see there. And it is that picture that will be the beginning of understanding–understanding of who you are, how you are loved. And how maybe, words are overrated.

My understanding, child, is deeper than that.

Father, we lift up our voices to You, your daughters. We stand and claim our place by your side, a place we do not deserve but which we say yes to, all the same. We are yours. We are conquerors in your name. You give us courage. We lean in now and desire your voice, your truth, more than anything else. We ask You to replace this heart of stone and give us a heart of flesh.

These troubles we face are temporary, and You are bigger than any problem. You are merciful, and You are kind. You are the Father, the King, the hero in our story. We love the story you write with your breath of love within our soul. Play your song in us now, our Lord. Let us be sweet music in your ears. We claim our place, and we hold your hand. You give us eyes to see and hearts to hear your voice.

It was your Word made flesh that gives us life. Thank you, Lord. This day, how holy, how beautiful–because of You here, right here, right now. You are all we need.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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  • Deb
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    Amen & Amen!
    Exactly the thoughts I needed to hear and the words I needed to go to my Lord with…
    Perfectly said….

    • Jennifer Camp
      Reply

      Thank you, Deb!

    • Nachelle
      Reply

      Yes Lord you are bigger then any problem I face! And I thank you Jesus! This is so beautiful! I needed this!

    • Inge Slabbert
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      … A big thank you for Loop and this blog.. Thank you Abba Father for this ministry. Please bless it in Your name..

  • Wendy
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    Wow, beautifully said on silence and waiting and hearing God’s voice.
    You are bigger than any problem, you are merciful and kind.
    ……and we hold Your hand. I love you Jesus.

  • Lou Jeune
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    Amen, yes God you are bigger than anything. You are everything to us there is nothing impossible to you. In the silence you will whisper how much your love surrounds us and in the silence you will show us our victory over every situation we are facing right now. God is good all the time, all the time God is good.

  • Marilyn
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    Thank you Lord for saving me. Thank you for my relationship with you, for loving me. I love you Lord.

  • Denise
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    Amen! Just what I needed to hear! Thank you Jesus!

  • Allison
    Reply

    Oh my, this speaks to me & I love the way you’ve captured the very space I sometimes find myself in….your daily devotions are so refreshing, beautiful & inspiring! Love it!

    • Jennifer Camp
      Reply

      Hi Allison, I am so thrilled. It is wonderful to connect here. Thank you so much for your encouragement.

  • Ginny H
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    Thank you Jennifer- as always, words so refreshing to take us to the heart of our Father! Silence is a beautiful thing when it isn’t clouded with chaos in the background or, as you’ve said , with the lies of the enemy. Thanks for causing me to have a few moments of it today!

  • Santha
    Reply

    AMEN!!!! I so needed to read this

  • Kristan
    Reply

    “We struggle to recognize these whispers of doubt and discouragement for what they are–distraction, lies of the enemy twisting what is good and making discontent rot what is hope, what is true, what is here. ” So true! Distraction is the word that comes to me so many times these days in the chaos of our lives, culture, country and world. The enemy seeks to destroy us through distractions.

  • Cj
    Reply

    How my heart yearns for Him to replace this consuming grief regarding my son’s brain cancer and estrangement. Please pray for our DIL to have mercy on our son and grandson allowing our family reunion.

    • Jennifer Camp
      Reply

      CJ, I am so sorry. Father, we pray for hope–your hope and presence in CJ’s family. Bring connection and trust. In Jesus’ name.

  • Theresa
    Reply

    Thank you for sharing this Jennifer. Too often I find myself thinking when it is silent that God isn’t listen or near me. He is with me though, in those quiet moments. He is my Savior and Lord and I just want to thank Him for that. Amen.

    • Jennifer Camp
      Reply

      Yes, I know what it is like to be discouraged in the silence. I pray we let ourselves be drawn close and be comforted and energized by the hope of His love for us, this moment, right now.

  • Cecelia
    Reply

    Thank you Lord!

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